I feel like I have so much to say but haven't yet stumbled upon the right words. I want to develop my artistic skills, mostly in terms of technique - capturing a likeness, exploring tone, building a relationship with different mediums and materials. And yet it is getting harder to have such a pragmatic relationship with my output. It isn't just about the mechanics of producing a piece. There are motivations that haven't been properly articulated. There is a longing for connection with other people. There is a loneliness that has worn out its usefulness. I want to depict people I love, and I want them to understand that love, and how my depict